Saturday, March 22, 2008
{ 12:49 AM }
The word "relationship" doesn't exist because i am selfish and self-centered.
I'm hopelessly enthralled with the idea of waking up when i want, watching TV when i want, eating (when and what) as much as i want and in the process, having friendship, romance, and sex when (and with whom) i want.
Because I'm emotionally cripple, driven by terror I barely acknowledge, much less understand, so averse to intimacy that i sprint from it whenever things get too good.
I want to be a girl who can be independent, dominant and self-sufficient, and can survive without the mere appearance of any guy in my life.
However, beneath i am no different from that of a sorority girl. My need to be in a relationship, my tendency to value my romantic relationship above all other things and to subvert my own personality to that relationship spoke directly of a society that hasn't transformed since the fifties.
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Ok, that so din sound like amy, i noe.
But i came to realise i have this exact mindset as mentioned above.
Ok, enuff of this emo not emo, serious not serious crap.
Anyway, i haven been blogging recently because im so tied up with work.
Yes, case study: According to
Weiying, im ALWAYS busy. 10 times ask me out, 10 times i reject.
Ok, i promise the nxt meeting i'll go. Be it in India or Bangladesh. Ok, im crapping at such ungodly hour..
Went for
Starhub roadshow at
Heeren today.
Trust me, i feel 4kg lighter after standing the whole day. Yes, amy is as skinny and toned as Cameron Diaz. Trust me, im not exaggerating.
Hahaha, ok fine. I am in fact far from that, BUT seriously my feet hurts.
Imagine all my weight on my feet. Time to reflect abt running in the morning i noe.
Anyway, amy is damn stupid cuz i recently(ytd) realised that as long as u haven pay for the application fee for uni, they dun process ur application.
Maybe this is a delusion. But seriously, im trying to console myself that no uni had called me up for interview cuz i haven paid for the fees. I mean xf got a call from smu alr.
Yes, amy is kiasu. Auntie wad!
So anyway, recently, a new batch of colleagues joined my dept. There's this rly special guy i muz introduce.
He tried/is still trying to steal my girlfren, aka xf, away!
No to mention he looks like a
GIRAFFE!Cuz he's freaking tall! K, im not exaggerating, rly.
I talk to him with my head raised.
U see the resemblance? OF COURSE NO! Cuz the giraffe is much cuter and it doesn't USE NAPKIN AT THE AGE OF 19!
Haha, it's ok, we will juz have to accept people for who they are. Afterall, napkins and serviettes are free. (amy's theory: take anything tt's free)
Ok, shan tease him too much if not xf will slaughter me.
So anyway, now we all noe. My love rival is
TALLER den me,
MANLIER den me (DUH?!!) and err,
RICHER den me...
Hai, xf.. haizzzzzzzzzzz!
*shake head X 5times*
Ok, maybe i shld crap some other day. I noe, i always stop at the climax.
Hehe! Korean dramas also liddat.
Ok, gg to slp le. Tmr got roadshow again! Hmm, come visit me!!!
P.S: Dun be like
FABIAN!!!
Come socialise den nv sign up!!!
Waste my precious time n effort!
Haha, k la.. Jk jk!
Fabian, ur effort coming down is well-appreciated.
So how, got spot any "ur cup of tea" of guys/girls?? Heh!
Anyway, i juz went to read Qazim's blog and realised he still tag me under:
"Amy, AUNTIE PORK"
C'mon, Let bygones be bygones. Can pls change "pork" to "ham"?
Maybe the nxt time we meet, i'll buy u some first class
pork bacon??
Haha, k k, shan crap anymore.
Ok, lastly, I swear this is
FOREPLAY for my next entry. Haha, check this out, hottest girl in town in my nxt entry!
Ok, im kidding. Fine. BYE!
